A friend!

A Friend Should be Radical

They should love you when your unlovable

Hug you when your unhuggable

And bear you when your unbearable

A friend should be fanatical

They should cheer when the whole world boos

Dance when you get good news

And cry when you cry too

But most of all, a friend should be mathematical

They should multiply your joy

Divide your sorrow

Subtract the past

and add to your tomorrow

calculate the need deep in your heart

and always be  bigger than the sum as all your parts.

Author Unknown

The beauty of Rain

One of nature's gifts is the silence that follows rain.  Tranquility is the refreshing feeling that comes after the rain fades away.  The clean crisp silence that transcends as the storm calms. The smell of clean air and leaves on the trees that glisten as if tear drops have landed there for a moment to rest before they slide back into the earth..  It's beautiful when it rains and the sun is shining.  A mixture of two different seasons.  Then there is the rainbow that forms over the horizon.  An optical phenomenon where strobes of beautiful colors stream across the sky. All of this is a part of God's beautiful creation.

Healing a broken heart!

I'm at that vulnerable spot, where I open up, take a risk, ask for someone to listen to my heart.  My heart is overflowing with a piercing and unrelenting pain.  I'm filled with uncertainty.  I have to ask myself, was that wise?  Taking the risk?  Well.... I must say that I'm feeling exposed and not knowing if I'll get a response.  I yearn for that special someone to rise up and meet me half way.  Tears roll down my cheek as I contemplate how this will turn out.  Hum.... as I think more deeply about my situation I realize that i might be asking the wrong person to hear my heart.  There is someone I can go to, no matter what my burden is.  Whether it's forgiveness I'm seeking, love that I'm yearning for, or relief from the knowledge that I can't fix this problem on my own.  Whatever it is, whatever question I may need to ask, whatever I'm seeking; Jesus is there, waiting.  All I need to do is tell Him, in the prayers of my heart, and He will be there to listen, to comfort and He will hold me in His loving arms, even filling that whole in my heart where just moments ago I felt so empty. 

Fun Times!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Calling on Jesus!

Sometimes my emotions can be my downfall.  All in one day I can experience sadness, happiness,  anger, joy, fear, and lonliness.  I often feel uncertain and confused.  Sometimes I'm just scrambling to gather my thoughts.  Somedays I feel lost, rushing around in a panic.  Many times I feeled pulled in some many directions.  Then I remember to call out to the one who can calm my heart and my very soul.  I can lift up my heart and praise the name of Jesus.  Asking  Him for strength, courage and peace that only He can provide.  I can follow Him fearlessly down a path that is good and wonderful. No matter what, God is there to lead us along, all we have to do is ask.

Yesterday vs Tomorrow

Sometimes I find myself caught up in the memories from my past.  Some of those memories are sweet and some hold alot of pain.  I think it's possible to allow ourselves in get stuck in the past.  For me I know that for along time I allowed my past to invade my  everyday life.  I missed out on some really great times and even some relationships.  Leaving the past behind can be a real challenge.  For me I thought that meant saying it never happened, or maybe that "it wasn't that bad".  That's not what it means.  I had to acknowledge the hurt and pain and walk through it to get to the other side.  That is where I began to find healing.  I'm still in the process of taking each of those hurtful times and placing them at the feet of Jesus.  There are those days, where I try to take them back, make them mine again, but I'm finding that's not the answer.  I also kept waiting for the people who hurt me to come and say they were sorry.  I told myself that when they did that I would feel better.  What happens if they never say they are sorry?  Does that mean I'm destined to be burdened by the past forever?  I don't think that is what Jesus ever intended for our lives.  I had to be secure in the knowledge that He loves me and that he can heal any pain no matter how big or how small.  That is enough for me.  There are still times when I deeply want someone to say that they are sorry for hurting me.  But that is their stuff to deal with in their own time and own way.  I know I want to move forward and the only way for me to do that is to step out of the shadows of my past and walk into the light of my wonderful future.  I know who will be holding my hand the whole way, my Heavenly Father.

Leap of Faith

Today was one of those days where my heart was hurt.  I opened myself up and trusted.  With that comes the risk of being let down.  I don't think we can truly live life without taking some risks.  It's not a perfect world and people are only human.  The only way we learn is by practice.  Relationships are hard and come with many complexities.  As I read the scripture below it helped me to relax and realize that I could trust in my faith, the faith I have in my Jesus.  Sure I will be hurt, or disappointed, but by taking the risk I also get a chance at love, friendship and fellowship.  I'm going to pray that He will light the path for my feet that He has choosen for me.  I'm going to trust my God and take a leap of faith.

Cause me to hear Your loving-kindness in the morning, for on You do I lean and in You do I trust. Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk, for I lift up my inner self to You. Psalm 143: 8